D.
Sometimes a void,
Sometimes a black sea,
Sometimes you feel a flicker of happiness,
Sometimes you just want to crawl out of your own skin,
It’s always there, yes, the feeling of freefall, of drowning but never dying, of chewing but never swallowing or spitting out,
You share but you can feel the uncanny dismissal of the beings that swear they love you,
“Everything will be fine” seems as far as the Stone Age,
You wonder when you’ll be put out of your misery,
You pray but no one listens,
You are slipping,
Your heart is aching,
Your mind is failing,
And suddenly,
It’s there,
Light,
Overwhelming light,
Hope,
The feeling of satisfaction that one day, either way, Depression or not, we die.
This is a little something I wrote back in the days of my sojourn in the wilderness of pitch black. It was probably the very first time I realised I had hypothetically received a writing talent from the God of talents due the feedback I got from the select few I showed the above piece.
I recently bagged a degree in Psychology (felt good to say that) and one thing I always hear from the simpletons I discussed my mental health with in the past was “oh how come? They should have taught you how to handle so-so in your course now”. Lol, as if it works that way.
The truth is nobody; I mean NOBODY (boyfriend, parents, pastor, peers) or NOTHING can make you “snap out” of depression. Oh and don’t think “I can handle stuff myself”. You actually need to get HELP! Psychiatric help, sometimes it’s just your body not producing enough serotonin; a little boost and bye-bye depression. Psychotherapy helps too; but this country is bad so good luck finding a therapist that isn’t judging or a therapist that doesn’t want to take you to the other room.
If you feel like you need to talk to someone, I’m here, let’s be best friends, I’m funny; the crazy, I-wish-I-met-you-a-long-time-ago funny. I’ll make you piss your pants (figuratively please, can’t spoil the slay, drip is eternal). Send an email to [email protected]
Love & Light.
Leave a comment, do you understand the opening piece?
Incase you’re wondering, the title “D” stand’s for depression.
I know I said I’ll be gone for two weeks but I’m back after one. Miss me? Check out my previous posts.
your blog posts are soooo relatable and I love love ittt❤️
Omg thanks so much 💓
I’m so glad you are back. I’m so happy you said nobody can bring you out of your depression, I think people need to understand that, like “I’m not a lover of sadness, it’s just difficult to stop being sad”. Congratulations on your first degree♥️
My dear Clementine, yes you don’t get sad on purpose. Thanks so much 💓
Your page is always so refreshing 🥺. There’s no place ild rather be ❤️
Thank you so much💓💓💓
A lot of people really think depression is a joke. We hear things like Nigerians cannot be depressed (BS), we have tough skin (yen yen yen). They need sensitization.
Thanks for this great piece though, I look forward to the next.💖
Once, I had many things on my mind. Things I could just leave be but I didn’t. I got depressed and I didn’t even know it. The way I got out? Well, I just had to eat good food, mind my business more often.
The thing is no one can actually take you out of depression, they would all try to motivate you to stop being sober and since they’re not you, they can’t help at all.
I love the poem btw ❤️
You’re an eater like me😂😂 😂, coming out of depression takes a lot of inner strength. Thank you so much ❤️ ❤️❤️
As if depression cares about the color of your skin or your race. Like I said simpletons everywhere, they really need sensitization. Thank you so much ❤️❤️❤️
Interesting thought on this
Thanks💓
Welcome back Le Reina.
Thanks 💓
Congratulations on your degree. Lol I legit can’t believe someone thinks cuz you studied psychology you automatically can’t get depressed. And this is really a relatable post . Love and light 💕
I know right, such a dumb angle 😂 Thanks so much dear.💓💓💓
Damn… So deep… Mental health is important biko… I hope people find this educative n seek help in areas that they need help… Weldone Esther
Thank you so much ❤️
Hmmmmm
Thanks for this great piece ❤
You’re welcome 💓
You should write more poetry
😊😊😊😊 yeah sure
Finally got to finish reading this as I was always caught up every time since you posted, love the poetry…..beautiful and relatable posts, like very very relatable I just cried myself out of a situation I’ve been holding on to..girl keep it up..I’m here for all of it❤️😍
Awww Thank you so much💓💓💓💓, Better days ahead.
Great piece, glad to know I’m not alone
Yes I’m here. Thank you so much💓💓💓
This post is so relatable. Nigerians always assume that you can’t be depressed. Thanks for this.
Anytime 💓
I love this blog more and I am happy for you…
Let’s keep preaching this gospel in the ears of those that need it
Aww, thank you so much ❤️ ❤️ yes definitely.